running outside

i ran outside for the first time in a really really long time (2 years?) on sunday morning. the sun was shining and i was pumping myself for that morning's run. i was really nervous at first. i was so scared to run outside for fear of injuring myself before the race. but i had to do it, i had to experience how different it was to run outside. and now, im addicted.

i mapped out my run beforehand and had a goal of 4miles. i stretched a bit longer and warmed up till i felt comfortable. and then i ran, and ran, and ran. once i got back home, i was in shock. i couldnt believe it. did i really just run 4miles? not sure of myself, i re-mapped my run, and yep, it was 4 miles. this was a big deal to me because just two months ago, i barely could run a mile.

i was on such a high. i ran without my ipod because i wanted to focus on my surroundings. you know, in case someone tried to kidnap me and what not. and i thought it would be difficult to run without music, how would i pass the time? but i found it easier. being outside was motivation for me. passing all the trees and not running in place (via treadmill) was what i needed to further enjoy running.

i havent been able to run outside again due to the rainy weather we get in the afternoons. today i am hopeful. i want to run and breathe in the fresh air. please rain, dont fall till this evening so i can run outside.

today is exactly one month till the half. i got my email this morning with my number and bib color. i got chills when i read it. its almost here, this is what ive been training for. i used to stress myself out nightly about this (will i be able to do this, am i training right for it, will i complete it) but today and moving forward, i feel confident. this will be conquered.