i have all these ideas in my head: i want to live in different cities on either coast to see where i would want to settle down, i toss back and forth the idea of going back to school, maybe i should move home and take a year off, stay where i am and see where it leads me, move back to philly and feel a sense of security.

things were going great. i finally found my place in dc, i made great friends, i feel comfortable, i keep busy, i have a life. i became content.

friday afternoon is when i hit a low point. i had a talk with my director and it looks like when our sister company's merger is complete, i will be their new support system. fancy term for saying assistant. i will be relinquishing most of my responsibilties and basically doing bitch work.

i dont know if i can do this. i dont know if i can be ok with this. i hate doing administrative work. i know im young and have less than 2 years of work experience, less than a year's worth of experience in marketing, BUT, this is a big step back.. even if this is only temporary, i dont know how i am supposed to deal.

i dont want to act rash, but all i want to do is quit. i know this isnt the time to do it.

but tell me, how do you suck this up? how do you move on? how am i supposed to humble myself to do someone's else job where the requirements don't even need a bachelor's degree.

do i just stick it through, be a team player, put a smile on, while waiting for the economy to turn itself around and more jobs open up?

do i take the easy way out and quit and move back home?

i understand the economy is in bad shape, and a lot of companies are asking help internally for everyone to pitch in, but i feel in my department, i am the only one pitching it.. how can i decipher if im being walked all over or if everyone else has too much on their plate and i seem like i dont?

i just want all these thoughts to disappear, i dont want to live in my reality.

i want to know the right thing to do. i want to fast forward 5 years from now. i want to know that i will be in a good place. i want to not be lost anymore.