throwing myself a pity party for one.

i need to escape! maybe because the sun keeps teasing us with the bright blue skies, and if the wind is calm enough, you can feel the warmth of the sun. im in a rut. ive been in maryland for the past 2months and i cant take it anymore. i am constantly busy. i have something going on basically every single day. its great to be preoccupied, but i just need me time. away from routines/schedules. i really want to go away somewhere warm and beachy, but there is a slight problem called financial woes that is preventing from me working on my tan whilst sipping my problems away on margaritas.

i have this outstanding bill from the ENT doctor i saw in dec. its been this on going process of back and forth with the insurance company and the doctor's office. long story short, i went to the ENT office because the office was in my network, the doctor i saw wasn't in network, misunderstanding with dr's office thinking greatwest and cigna covered the same thing, my insurance company wont budge in paying- bottom line, im stuck paying my doctor visit who i wouldve never saw if i knew he wasnt in network. suckhole. big time.

im set on the idea of going back to school. ive done a fair amount of research and have decided to apply to the master's in nursing for the clinical nurse leader program. wow, thats a mouthful. im going to one of the colleges open house thursday, so im very interested in learning more about the program and getting the application process moving. wish me luck.

im going to new york this sat. to meet up with one of my good friends from college. im hoping this trip will be enough to put things back in perspective with me and i wont be such a debbie downer.