don't do it. dont freak out. don't do it. don't do it. don't do it.

oh no, im doing it!!!!! AHHHHHHHH.

i had another job interview today which went smoothly, except for the part where they asked for salary requirements. it started off at 24,000. OH MY. thats not even right. how can anyone who lives in the dc metro area survive on 24,000?!? this just in, that might be me. maybe even less if i ended up working at my part-time job, full-time. oh god, what did i do?

feeling deflated once again, im starting to freak out. my thoughts are swimming in my head to the point where im drowning. i don't want to panic, i want to be positive, but im not sure if i can make it.

i need to have an outlet but i feel so terrible and like a broken record complaining to everyone around me. i made my own mess, and now have to deal with it.

i don't want to be scared and to look back with regret. i need to find my inner strength and know that everything is going to be ok.