Rationalizing my life.

I think of myself as a very practical person. of course i have a few moments where i indulge myself in things i cannot afford, but rarely. i work two jobs, going to school part-time, paying all of my bills on time. then one weekend, memorial day weekend to be exact, a light bulb went off. i craved and needed more. i wanted to feel alive. the next few days to follow, i booked a trip to greece and italy and quit my job.

don't get me wrong, i have definitely suffered my fair share of panic attacks the past few weeks. case in point, yesterday's blog. but today, i awoke with my more clarity. i know this isnt the end. i am given a second chance of doing something i want to do. i dont have to conform the next 40 years of my life at a desk job. this is the point in my life where i can try and find something i want to do.

this is taken from chris guillebeau's blog:

4 Important Questions to Ask Yourself:

1) Am I satisfied with my work? Does it meet my needs and fulfill my desires?

Your work should not exist merely to provide income for the rest of your life. Ask yourself, what am I working for? Am I working to make a living or to make a life? If your work supports your goals, that’s great. If it doesn’t, maybe it’s time to make a change.

2) Think back to the times you have left your home country. What did you learn on those trips? Do you think you have more to learn?

For me, the more I have traveled, the more I learn, and the more I realize how big the world really is. When I was younger and had spent a fair amount of time abroad, I used to say that I had traveled “all over the world.” More than 60 countries later, I laugh at that idea. There are still many, many countries I have yet to visit, and even after I achieve my goal of visiting every country in the world, there will still be many places within those countries that I still won’t have experienced.

3) If you could go anywhere in the world, where would that be? (Don’t think about reasons why you can’t go there.)

Brainstorm through the six inhabited continents – Africa, Australia, Asia, Europe, North and South America – and think about cities or countries on each of them that you’ve always wondered about. Chances are there’s somewhere, and probably several places, that you’ve always wanted to see.
Finally, while I believe that international travel is not nearly as expensive as the lifestyle many people wear themselves out to maintain, it’s true that it does cost money to travel around the world.
Therefore, you should also understand the answer to this question:

4) What are your financial priorities?

If you don’t know the answer offhand, it’s easy to get it.Just look back at your bank statements, financial software, or credit card statements for the last six months. Whether you like it or not, where you’ve been spending a lot of money is where your priorities are. If you’d like to value experiences more than “stuff,” you may need to make some changes.
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wish me luck :)